Paranoid Insomniac

So, today's finally the first part of graduation. We had our graduation mass, during which I can't help but think back to all things that have happened to me in this wonderful four-year journey, a while ago. What will I miss most about Ateneo High? Frankly, I don't know where to begin. But I am sure that what I'd miss most is the tiring day to day attendance in my classes. Yes, all those boring lectures which go on for hours and hours. Weird isn't it? You know why? It is because in all those tiresome classrooms I've known people whom have helped me become what I am today. Without those friends I've made in high school I wouldn't have grown as a person. In the entire four years that I have stayed there I've learned one thing and that is, high school is no fun without people sharing the fun with. How can we live a fruitful high school life if we didn't make any friends? The answer is, there would be no high school to enjoy and live out. There will not be any existing happy memories that you would treasure for the rest of your life. There would only be you and your diploma which in the end would be meaningless if you didn't go out of your shell and socialize.

Tomorrow's out graduation rites, exactly 12 hours away :( I want to graduate but I can't bear leaving the people whom I have been so attached to. There would be a myriad of emotions running through my veins tomorrow. I don't know what to feel or even think. I wish we still had classes, I wish we still had practice, I wish we had anything that would keep me in high school.. :( I'm gonna be in a new world after tomorrow's ceremony. COLLEGE..uhhhhh...I'm partly excited, as I've said in my past blog. But I don't know, I somehow don't want tomorrow or at least half of tomorrow to end. errr.. :| I was talking to my cousin before the mass started, she's gonna be an incoming HS freshman, I told her to treasure every single moment she'll have in high school whether they be good or bad because each experience you would go through has a purpose. I know I treasured mine. She's so lucky, I wish I can relive HS over again. Damn it! There should have been a grade 7 here just like in Manila! :| Para kahit papaano meron pang isang year. :( But even with one more year, HS will still have to end ;( Bukas na talaga, I can't believe this is happening so fast. Parang kahapon lang talaga 2004 :( Why hasn't time travel been invented yet? hahaha...I'll just have to make this summer the best that it can be. God only knows when I'm leaving. hahai..After tomorrow, it's gonna be hello Manila, hello new life ALONE, hello college and goodbye friends:( I might pull this off you know, won't I? *sigh* I hope college is as cool as everyone says it will be..hahai..I'll really really really miss every single friend I've made.

Anyways, kapoi na type. Here's all I can say to all graduates, batch 2008, of Ateneo High: We are at the pinnacle of our HS life, let's take a moment and remember all the good times we've spent in our beloved alma matter.As graduation is nearing and high school is coming to a close, I hope we can tell ourselves that we made it and that we deserve being where we are at. And also, I hope we take with us the Ignatian spirit wherever our new colleges may be, I hope we exhibit MAGIS in all that we do and I really wish we don't forget that we always have God to run to when we are burdened with fears and problems. Congratulations sa lahat, good luck sa college and sana we make the most out of our college life just like what we did in our high school one! Batch '08 I am proud to say that I've have been a part of you, soar high!!!!! ATENEO FOREVER!! XD AMDG :) XD

Labels: ateneo, ateneo de davao, ateneo high, batch '08, commencement exercises, graduation, high school

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This has been the first time i've writtten in quite a while. I forgot i even had a blog until yesterday..hahahaha...but anyways yesterday was the LAST time I had to take my HS periodical tests. And what a relief it was, too bad we couldn't shout and go wild because the school admin is such a kill joy..grrr... :| But this is it, the big one, graduation. I'll surely miss HS, I made the best of friends here. People who I'd always consider to be part of who I am.

I'm leaving my home town for college. I've been wanting this since I was a freshman. To finally be away from my parents. I don't have to live in their shadow anymore. My dad has been making a big fuss about this, he thinks I'm leaving him for good! hahaha..hilarious..But there always comes a time in a teen's life where they know that they just have to move on and go out on the real world. People like my father, particularly my relatives, don't think it's a good idea for me to go to Manila. The main reason is because they think I can't fend for myself, which I can by the way. You see I'm one of those " spoiled rich kids," I don't think I am though but MANY people consider me to be which is so frustrating because they think I don't have survival instincts. It's hard to be stereo-typed by so many people who think that you can't be independent or do simple things like clean!!! :|

I'll be leaving so many people behind: my friends, parents, family and the good memories of HS and my childhood. I'll go out in to a world where I've only been partly introduced to. I passed many problems in the past, I hope I'm up to this. As much as I would like to go now, there is a part within me that's holding me back. I still don't want to grow up frankly, I still want to be in high school. College is fun, I know so many people say so, but it's a new world to me. Can I really do this? Can I really move out of my shell? *sigh*...Enough college talk, lol...I barely even got up on stage yet to get my diploma!! hahaha...Oh yeah before I go one more thing, I hope my friends won't ever forget me when I get back from the first year. That's one more thing I worry about, what if they don't treat me the same when I get back? errrrr...too much thinking about the future!! :| For now I'll just spend time with the people whom I'll leave behind.

Labels: ateneo, college life, emo :|, high school, reality, sadness

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